IMPATIENCE

 IMPATIENCE

Impatience and desperation go hand in hand,
Like shadows in the night, they stalk my every thought.
Submissive, setting for the need's demand,
A need that whispers promises of solace, yet leaves me wanting more. Sorrowful, that loneliness demanded its way,
In the quiet of my room, I hear its mournful song.
Conforming, letting sex have the last word to say,
A fleeting touch, a hollow victory, in the war against my solitude. Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella, where are you?
Your tales of transformation mock my stagnant days.
I'm engaged to boredom, drugs, and something to do,
A marriage of convenience, to numb the ache within. Indifferent, dissatisfied, coasting along,
A ship adrift, no harbor in sight, no wind to fill my sails.
Smiling out of obligation; this road for me is wrong,
Each grin a mask, each laugh a lie, on this path I do not belong. Surely there is more than the inadequacy of his kiss,
More than this tepid touch, this lukewarm embrace.
Going through the motions, impersonating bliss,
A performance for an audience of one, who sees through the charade. Orion, Big Dipper, Star of the North,
I gaze upon your celestial dance, seeking a sign, a spark of hope.
Please let wishes made on pennies thrown in fountains go forth,
Let them ride the ripples, to the ears of fate, and grant me a reprieve. Beyond these mountains, outer space, and all I cannot see,
Lies a world uncharted, a life unlived, a love yet to be.
I have faith that, there, my lover waits for me,
A soulmate, a kindred spirit, to share in my journey, to set me free.